Day 440

So here we are.  Another day of running around Lake Padden.  I actually felt good and was able to keep up a fairly consistent pace.  Still not convinced I'm really running but at least it seems like I'm getting the motion down.  I did clock in at 34 minutes so that's a bit of improvement definitely.  Lorinda had a race so we didn't meet after the run and I was at a loss as to what to do.  In hindsight I should have gone to the gym and threw some iron around for a little while.
Tomorrow will be the bike ride and I'm excited to get out there.  I think I can cut some time off of the ride so it will be practice, practice and more practice.

Breakfast: Cherry Pie Larabar and 20oz of cold water.

After the run: Protein drink

After grocery shopping: I'm changing my grocery shopping day to Sat for now.  Sunday with the biking doesn't allow enough time for everything I feel I have to do.  I'll see it that will make Sunday a bit less hectic.  So I had a deli sandwich.  It was on low carb/high protein bread with turkey, pesto, and lots of veggie.  Also a banana.

Mid afternoon lunch: Tortilla with cheese and turkey.

Met up with friends in the early evening and we BBQ'd.  I had two burgers and chips.  And then later in the evening I had a slice of rye bread with almond butter, a slice of apple/walnut bread, and a small piece of cinnamon roll.

So once again I stepped up to the line and then stepped over the line.  Two hamburgers was one too many.  I just can't seem to control the impulse.  Especially in a social setting.  The chips were okay but I really have to think more when it comes to social eating.  In a way it's like alcohol, most people drink when they are with others and don't realize how much they've drank until it's too late. Thinking about the fact that I ate the extra burger now doesn't really help.  I have to get better at thinking about it in the moment.
I don't need to feel deprived because I'm only eating ONE hamburger.  I need to enjoy and savor that one hamburger and look forward knowing I made a good choice.  I will still eat the hamburger and enjoy the fact I'm not limiting my life, I'm prolonging my life.

Here's a thought.  Maybe next time my friends invite me for a BBQ I will bring my own burger.  That way I know I will be eating a burger that will satisfy me and so not feel the need for quantity over quality.  Hmm.