Day 268

240.  See that number?  That's good news and bad news.  At least in my mind as I try to justify the reasons for gaining weight when I'm trying to lose pounds.  So the bad news is the obvious, I gained weight.  The good news not so much.  Part of the good is the fact that even though I have now gained 4lbs since my victory dance at 236, my clothes still fit as well as they did at 236.  Even those pants that I bought a few weeks ago that were two waist sizes less than what I've been wearing for the past couple of years.  My first thoughts though were not of the good but definitely of the bad.  Dammit I'm trying to lose pretty much 100lbs and I hate when it stalls out.  Of course then I talk to L and she helps me in a variety of ways.  One is being reminded that more than likely, yes I weigh more but did I really gain fat?  She laid an interesting fact on me, that in all the reading I've done I'd not run into.  The fact that it takes 3500 calories to equal a pound of weight.  So unless I've been sleep eating ( wouldn't surprise me but....) the weight I've gained is probably not fat.  So that leaves muscle or water retention (there's some more of that good news).  I'm not trying to get muscle bound but I need some to offset that the flab on my body.  If it's water weight, well that's not bad news just annoying, as that causes another factor in all this.  I'm learning that my weight will fluctuate no matter what I do.  The reasons for that are simple.  I drink a couple of adult beverages one night or eat pancakes one day and the next I eat yogurt.  Those actions will cause the body to react differently.  So if I weigh myself on each of those days I will get different numbers.  Are those numbers accurate?  To a point but in reality it's the big picture versus the immediate future.  I'm in it for the big picture.  I'm planning on continuing this new way of dealing with my body and food for ever.  So everyday is pretty much a learning experience when I sit down to a meal.  Gotta keep the faith.  It's happening, I just need to be aware of what I'm doing and make adjustments when necessary. 

Wow..Okay here's how today went:

Breakfast: Oatmeal with some cinnamon and lemon curd.  20oz of cold water.

L ran me through a really good workout and I felt good afterwards.  I was meeting a friend right after the workout so I didn't get a chance to eat in a timely fashion.  I had one of the workout drinks the gym sells to tide me over and then when I did get home I had a green salad with chicken thighs (two) and salsa for dressing.

Saturday night was my usual get together with friends for the D&D game.  Once again it was a time of trying to be good but failing to live up to the commitment of eating only stuff good for me.  So even though I only had two bowls (2nd one smaller quantity than the first) of clam chowder (white) I still ate a few more chips than I should have.  Also there was salt water taffy and I ate way to many of those.  Here's a random side note, why is it called "salt water" taffy?  I did drink water except for one wine cooler and a hot apple cider drink.  So L had told me to drink a lot of water to help flush the system and I'm trying to live up to that suggestion.  I took my workout bottle with a lemon chopped up in it and drank from that all nite.

So in hind sight Saturday wasn't a complete cluster f#$@& but it could've gone better.  I'm not giving in and that's my story and I'm sticking to it.